Showing posts with label cheating. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cheating. Show all posts

Friday, November 1, 2013

Can You Cheat a Little, If No One Gets Hurt?

Can You Cheat a Little, If No One Gets Hurt?

I did my quarterly taxes yesterday and was reminded of the message of a youth at church on Sunday. He said: “Is it okay to cheat a little, if no one is looking?” Who exactly is watching each of us as we fudge a little here, take a some pens and paper home from work, steal Sweet & Low from restaurants, and check out in the 15 and Under line when we know we have 20 items?

This is a great question for those who are looking to understand a little more about spiritual growth and accountability—not to God, your neighbors, or the government—but, to yourself. You see, you don’t really cheat anyone in this world, because most of it is simply and ego elusion. You don’t own 15 acres and have millions of dollars. You simply borrow it on time from the world. Everything in this universe is going away eventually, including your physical body. What you see around you is a scenario, perhaps, you built to help teach you important lessons about life.

Definitely, most equivocally, the most important lesson in life is to be honest and authentic about who you are, what you represent, and what you choose to gain from life. If you don’t know the answers to these questions, your first order of spiritual business is to begin a search your heart for answers.

Personally, I look at situations in life with a spiritual litmus test. If you don’t know what a litmus test is, it is a particular die that turns red for acid and blue for alkaline. Metaphorically, it means a test to be sure you are doing the right thing. I ask myself a few questions about things that confuse or befuddle me:

1.  Am I doing what I do out of fear?
2.  Am I doing what I do out of guilt?
3.  Am I doing what I do for self-gain?
4.  Am I making this choice out of spite?
5.  Am I at peace with this decision?
6.  What exactly would be gained or lost should I choose to do this?

All of these questions are pertinent in your discovery of authentic truth. Let’s take choosing the 15 and Under line when you have 20 items. We have to remember that nothing is as simple as black and white. If it were, there would be little to learn in lessons such as these. Let’s take the litmus test.

Question 1: Yes, I think I might be late if I wait for the longer line. 2:) No. 3) Yes, definitely. 4.) no. 5) Yes, because no one is waiting in that line, and I wouldn’t be hurting anyone if I went to that line. 6.) I will be on time for an appointment, which helps me to be more considerate of someone else’s time.

So, you see, what may have looked like an easy answer, actually, turned out to be to do what looks wrong. I always ask myself another question: “Am I just programmed to believe that stepping over some boundaries is bad or will what I’m doing get me demerits with God?”

My answer to that question is that God is not keeping score. We are subconsciously keeping our tabulation on ourselves and it affects our self-esteem greatly if we don’t have answers to the questions that disturb us.

I think of Jesus breaking the Judaic law by healing the sick on the Sabbath. We can easily see that one law of love is greater than the pedantic law of the Sabbath. I believe that Jesus showed us over and over again that our relationship with ourselves and with God is dependent on having the heart of a child—open, transparent, and loving.
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The masses search outward for things that qualify them as a person, but I always go inward for that which quantifies me for greatness. At twenty-five I preached on street corners in NYC as an in-the-closet Pentecostal minister. One day I heard a still small voice say, ‘God cannot be contained in a book or a law or even in a religion. Dig deeper, reach further to find me, and you will find your authentic Self.’”

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Accessing the ability to change and finding yourself actually pursuing change must be a daily search, which I call getting to the “observer mind.”

In this frontal cortex of the brain we find the anatomy of change and the power to counter every negative trigger of the human process. The workings of Hypnosis, NLP (Neuro-linguistic Programming) and EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) are all positive actions to help the mind and body flow to a positive space for change.

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Thursday, March 14, 2013

Confessions of an Adulterer


Confessions of an Adulterer

No one would have guessed it was I, the one everyone honored and cherished. I was the best friend, not the good friend. I was the cheerleader and confident. I gave to the poor and sat tirelessly by the bedside of the sick. I made myself a pillar of the community and of the church. I was the father of the year. I wanted to appear unblemished, because underneath I was covered with the scabs of the past.

My story is an age-old one. You know it well. I got married to my childhood sweetheart just after college. We had three children, whom I cherish more than life. I have been married for almost twenty years now and I can’t imagine what it feels like to be single. I would never trade my life for anyone else’s in the world. In fact, I have been told many times in my life that I am truly blessed and lucky. I feel those attributes like a mantel I wear daily.

Pureness and security brought me to my thorn in the flesh. At night, when everyone slept, I slipped into the den and turned on my computer. Then I could imagine what my life would have been like had I been my gay neighbor, my coworker with all the one-night stands, or my sanctimonious preacher from my church who remains single to show his unwavering love for God.

In those late nights I would watch snippets of nude movies and Google things I could only put on an Incognito Window, because when I was finished, even the computer felt dirty. But it was there in my den, late in the evening, I realized that the only thing I hadn’t done in my life was cheat. I needed to feel the essence of being bad to be whole and complete, to be a real man. I wanted to experience being in the arms of another to know the truth that I held so blithely everyday. I needed the juxtaposition between my pure life and the depths of something so vastly not me that I ached inside for impurity.

What was once every week or two in the den, became every night in the den. I would forgo loving my wife, holding her for the two-dimensional stress of searching for the perfect stranger to defile me for the sake of my own humanity.

After careful consideration of all the ramifications of my actions, I went to Craigslist and read through the ads, carefully composing one of my own.  I made a dummy e-mail, a pseudonym, I made sure that whatever windows that were open were erased from the memory of the computer. Then, one night long after my intention, I finally got the courage to post the ad.

It wasn’t what I expected I would do. I found myself looking for a man, instead of a woman. Perhaps, because I didn’t think it would be as bad to be with a man. Maybe it wasn’t quite the betrayal to my wife. It would be just play. A man could understand a one-night stand, where a woman would be vulnerable, I told myself. Maybe I would meet another married man and all would be solved.

I remembered the pornography I watched in the months prior. What was it about any of those situations that I wanted to try or would be capable of trying as scared as I was then? Yet, I posted my ad. I took a picture of myself from the shoulders down. I said in the ad that I had to stay anonymous, and wanted to have a fling with a man, but wasn’t out.

A few men answered. Some disgusting. Some more lewd than I could imagine being. But one man stood out—beautiful and sexy.  I could tell by his return email to me, he had some depth. I seriously didn’t expect him to be the man I met. He was warm and kind and passionate and more intelligent than almost anyone I had ever met. When I left his house, I found that I had to have more of him. Not just so much more the sex. I wanted to see him again. I pursued him like an anxious, hungry dog.

What he thought was a one-afternoon fling, ended up being a man captured by the grips of unbridled, unrequited lust. After a month of changing my work schedule almost every day, lying to my boss, lying to my wife about staying late at work, and meeting this man almost everyday, I actually fell in love with this man.

What do I do now? I think about him all the time. I wish I had not gotten married and had children, so I can play out the life we could have had together. He is my soul mate and my one true love whom I never expected to meet in my lifetime. A man, nonetheless. The only man I had ever been with.

When my wife went to sleep one evening, I snuck out to his house, because the only thing I hadn’t experienced was spending the night with him. I knew I couldn’t stay the entire evening, but I wanted to hold him and sleep in his arms for just a few hours to see what it would feel like.

When I got home that evening, my wife and my son were up. He had been sick with the stomach flu for hours. My wife asked me where I was. She had been calling me on my cell phone. I had left my phone on the desk by the computer.

I came up with an alibi about feeling antsy and wanting to take a drive listening to loud music, and didn’t want to wake anyone up. She believed me. She had no reason not to. We tended to my child together. I apologized profusely for not being there. Her focus was on my son, fortunately for me.

The next day I broke it off with him.



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