My Mother, My
Friend
#mothersday
#mothersday
When I was seven years old,
my mother sent me to the candy store. The summer before fourth grade, I came
home from the store to a vacant house, my mother’s empty closet, and no mother
for six long years. In the days following her departure, I had to face a father
who discovered she had been having an affair with his best friend for eight
years, who also had six kids. My angry and alcoholic father made life miserable
for his six children and for anyone who didn’t hate his ex-best friend.
Needless to say, he turned
all of us against my mother. Her plan to leave my father and then regain
custody fell by the wayside. We were hard fisted into hanging up on my mother,
if she called and, if she visited, he demanded that we slam the door in her
face and call her a whore. The word mother
takes on a different definition when you have no logical or rightful
information to describe who should have been beside you in those formative
years.
After my father became too
abusive, all of the children had grown to teenagers. Each one of us, in our
time, went back to visiting our mother on the lowdown. Eventually, when my
father beat up my sister and me for spending 35 cents on a purple slush, I
moved in with my mom. Getting to know her after six long years without her was difficult,
to say the least. She lived in a one-bedroom apartment above my grandmother, so
she and I slept in the same bed. You can imagine how uncomfortable that felt,
until we had enough money for an apartment together. Of course, that meant
taking my father to court to get alimony, which practically killed any chance
of ever having a healthy relationship with him—ever.
My mother’s life was not as
I expected. Eventually, she would gather most of the children with her, and I
would become a son who barely saw her, hold her, and communicated with her,
until I soon went off to college and she moved 800 miles away to Tucson, as I
stayed back in Pittsburgh at Carnegie-Mellon. Another 20 years past, before we
ever spent more than a week together. Suddenly, after the family scattering to
all sides of the U.S., my mom and two sisters decided to make a huge change and
move to Nashville to be near me.
In that move, I began to
befriend my mother and learn about her—all the hard facts about why she left
us, how she ached inside, and how much she cared about me, as she nurtured me
through some very hard times in my life. So, when she asked if she could move
into the attached apartment on my house 6 years ago, I said yes, even though I knew this would mean
truly growing through some of my worst fears of abandonment and letting the
most difficult challenges of my past surface, so that they would heal.
My mother went to therapy
with me and discussed all of the most difficult issues of my life with me. She
learned to love my life and my friends, when being gay wasn’t something in her
purview. Now, she says she loves gay being better than straight people, which
makes me laugh. During the time of my mother living with me, I’d have to say
that something in my soul healed that could have never had a chance to see the
light of day had I not said yes to
the opportunity of a lifetime. God offered me the chance to remake and reshape
one of the most important relationships in my life.
So, I thank you, God, and I
thank you, Mom, for being there to help me find my authentic soul and gather
the broken pieces of the past to find a whole, healthy human being ready for a
steadfast future of much more love than I could ever imagine.
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